Unanswered Questions

Woke up at 3:30
So many unanswered questions
We will never know 

How long did it take for your body to die?
What happened to your spirit?                          
Could you see yourself lifeless before you moved on?
Did it hurt?
How much of a mess did you leave? 
Would seeing you have made this worse?
What if someone had come to your door before you pulled the trigger?
Could I have stopped you?
Could anyone?

But it's not okay to talk about the method.
So many people suffer in silence
Details and secrets will never be shared

It's a full moon
Just a couple days after the 18th
What made me think of you this time?