Back in the Chaos


Dreams can seem so real sometimes
Back in the chaos with you      
In a different location
Bold statements I knew untrue

Not convinced it's just mouthwash
This time I smelled alcohol
We were packing and moving
Not sure where we were going

Your erratic behavior
Seen more clearly than ever              
Constant cortisol flooding          
Perpetual fight or flight

Woke only slightly shaken
Relieved Iā€™m not there again
Realized almost instantly
It's the 18th of the month